This is a very simple spread, with only 2 cards. It came to me while reading Women Who Run With the Wolves, by Clarissa Pinkola Estes. I have many, many spreads from this seminal book. This one is from the story about losing and finding one’s soulskin.
It is a spread on a noble quest, the soul search. What is it you seek in life, what is it you want? What does your gut response tell you? Don’t kid yourself, for the ego and the soul want different things, and so, how do you know what you want? Shuffle your deck, and pick two cards. The first card answers the question What does my soul want? The second card answers the question What does my ego want? Take the time to focus before doing this spread, turn off all external noise, find a quiet space, and focus. This is what I got.
1. What does my soul want? The High Priestess.
Mystery, intuition, the subconscious, behind the veil, the unknown. She who knows but doesn’t tell. What a powerful woman, a woman initiated. My soul wants to seek, my soul yearns to contemplate a full moon, my soul wants life to be a mystery, my soul will take nothing but the sacred. My soul asks for a woman true to herself, she doesn’t have to justify herself to no one else. My soul wants to understand, to study, to learn, to be dedicated to the inner work, to know and to not know.
2. What does my ego want? 3 of Swords.
My ego wants pain. Ego loves pain, and sorrow, and martyrdom. The same story that energetically sucks you into a black vortex of “poor me”. Ego wants a threesome, a love triangle, or maybe just a deep, deep release of pain. Janina Renee notes “this card could denote someone whose view of reality has been distorted by depression, indicating a need to change perceptions”. Ego wants heartbreak.