Soul search

This is a very simple spread, with only 2 cards. It came to me while reading Women Who Run With the Wolves, by Clarissa Pinkola Estes. I have many, many spreads from this seminal book. This one is from the story about losing and finding one’s soulskin.

It is a spread on a noble quest, the soul search.  What is it you seek in life, what is it you want? What does your gut response tell you? Don’t kid yourself, for the ego and the soul want different things, and so, how do you know what you want? Shuffle your deck, and pick two cards. The first card answers the question What does my soul want? The second card answers the question What does my ego want? Take the time to focus before doing this spread, turn off all external noise, find a quiet space, and focus. This is what I got.

Soul Search Spread - Rider Waite Smith deck

1. What does my soul want? The High Priestess.

Mystery, intuition, the subconscious, behind the veil, the unknown. She who knows but doesn’t tell. What a powerful woman, a woman initiated. My soul wants to seek, my soul yearns to contemplate a full moon, my soul wants life to be a mystery, my soul will take nothing but the sacred. My soul asks for a woman true to herself, she doesn’t have to justify herself to no one else. My soul wants to understand, to study, to learn, to be dedicated to the inner work, to know and to not know.

2. What does my ego want? 3 of Swords.

My ego wants pain. Ego loves pain, and sorrow, and martyrdom. The same story that energetically sucks you into a black vortex of “poor me”. Ego wants a threesome, a love triangle, or maybe just a deep, deep release of pain. Janina Renee notes “this card could denote someone whose view of reality has been distorted by depression, indicating a need to change perceptions”. Ego wants heartbreak.


6 thoughts on “Soul search

  1. Paula February 2, 2011 / 9:27 am

    The swords express a deep understanding of sorrow, and when I see the 3 of swords I think it is an opportunity to almost surgically drain away some deeply held issues that are causing pain. It is such a dramatic image, very powerful.

    • tarotinateacup February 2, 2011 / 1:00 pm

      Yes that is nicely put – surgical drain away of deep issues. Thank you, it is one of the more difficult cards, and yet there is so much opportunity for release in it.

  2. submerina February 8, 2011 / 5:21 pm

    I’m currently re-reading WWRWtW and I would *love* it if you could share more of the spreads you’ve come up with. This one is *POW*; I’m blogging my results right now.

    p.s. So glad you’re not just a lurker anymore 🙂

    • tarotinateacup February 8, 2011 / 8:37 pm

      Isn’t it an incredible book? I’m starting to buy copies of it in second hand shops and give it to friends, like an evangelical fever. I’ll definitely be posting some more from it, and (grinning) I’m very happy you found it useful. Off to read your stuff now…

      • submerina February 9, 2011 / 3:50 pm

        “[E]vangelical fever” – ha ha ha! I didn’t appreciate it the first time I owned it; too young and stubborn. I’m ready now and am startled how many of the stories I have come to on my own, either through dreams or wandering thoughts or meditation. They’re called archetypes for a reason! 🙂

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